I feel life is being unfair to me and my family members. I really feel empty inside of me and wish I am no longer in this world. How does it feel on the other side? I wish I know, it is better to leave this place where everything is so difficult without the hope of getting better or easier.
My elder brother has been unemployed for over 7 years, in fact, he has never worked since he finished his NYSC. he could not even secure a job as a sales rep, he had to result to driving bus in my village to support himself and the family.
My elder sister has been working as fuel pump attendant in a small filling station in my village since she graduated from school without a job more than 7 years no, no man is even asking her hand in marriage, yet, she is one of the most beautiful and responsible ladies in my community.
I finally graduated from school, became a fire brand Christian while on campus, attending Redeem, because I don’t want to follow the pattern in my family with my elder siblings. I guess it is not the case here, because I finished serving and was job hunting for more than 3 years without a job. the job I finally got January this year with shipping company, folded up in May, because things were too difficult for my MD, due to the dollar inflation and economic situation in the country.
I really don’t know what to do as we speak, because I can’t retire back home like my siblings and I can’t pay my house rent here in PH anymore, as my rent will expire this month end, my savings is not even enough as I have been out of job since May with my MD owing us 2 months salary. I practically live from hand to mouth as I am sending this message.
Just this morning, I got a message from my sister telling me our father has been on admission and we need to settle his hospital bills, my mum was bitten by a snake in the farm and receiving treatment with the local medicine man close to our house. I AM TIRED, I FEEL LIKE ENDING IT ALL!
where do I go from here?
Trust in God, he will definitely come through for you, the darker the night the closer the day, don’t give up.
Life itself is a mystery. Ending it isn’t an option. For there are lots of people who are wishing to be you. One things is to acknowledge there is a problem another thing is the effort you put in breaking out of the problem. I am not a practicing Christian but I will advise you to follow Apostle Joshua Selman on FB or YouTube his message will guild you. Giving Ceaser his belongings will go a long way
God cannot leave us in a situation that we cannot handle. Put your full trust in him and you will look back to this period of your life with infinite gratefulness towards him
My dear friend, I sympathise with you and at the same time, I celebrate your bravery. Though I have a few questions for you.
1. What is the result of your elder siblings like? (a 2:1, 2:2 or 3rd class)
2. How determined were the both of them?
3. Did they give up easily?
4. What happened to your parents?
Please ponder over these questions.
I have a different approach to this situation, I really feel this is not the time to think about committing suicide nor go into depression, I feel this is the time to tackle this challenge that seems like an insurmountable mountain.
You and your entire family should seek spiritual help please, it is a pattern in the family, I think you should all retrace your family foundation and fix this.
Before you do this, don’t think about ending it all. Remember, the darker the night, the brighter the morning my dear friend.
Great one
Living upright is good, however most times things like this requires spiritual warfare, possibly family deliverance as most times it’s not ordinary, I will advice you cease from your efforts and separate yourself/retreat with God personally before any further action.
Let her seek for d help of her classmates to pay her parents bills and she has to tell her sister to leave d village as village is not a place for young graduates unless something is there. For graduates She can try Abuja and can seek for cash to start a small scale biz. It could be from church pastor to loan her or any other way. When she sells even foodstuff and her customer who is a man will request for her hand in marriage since she is a graduate. Let her hasten up to sell foodstuffs now that she is young